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twice in one day damn Im on a roll - this is me...lauren jessica

Nov. 27th, 2007

09:39 pm - twice in one day damn Im on a roll

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I spend so much time helping other and their problems that i have nit taken a look at myself. I think I am clingy to my bf maybe I am not but I do call more than I usually would. It freaks me out to know that in February he will be away in Arizona doing military training for 6 months. I am learning patience but he means a lot to me. We were friends first and I knew he was going away before we were together but it all of the sudden bothers me. I come from a military family I understand the career he choose but I must admit it's hard. I feel that our time is always very limited. He is very busy for the most part and I feel that I am a second thought although he says that I am not. I know he misses me but I can't help but think maybe he is too busy for me. I can honestly say I have never felt this way about another man, other than Jevon. Maybe Jevon sent him to me. The truth is the only other man I was ever this comfortable with was Jevon. I guess I should make the most of it, I know I am going to try and make it work somehow.